Things on Tuesday -- 5/14/08 -- A Day Late

whoops, forgot to do things on tuesday

Loathing:

• the loads of work i have to do in the next two weeks.  i HATE contacting parents.  i avoid it at all costs.  can't wait till that is over
• going to miss the kids
• my yearbook's cover is coming off.  have no idea if one of the kids was too rough with it, or if the glue was just not good on it.
• that most jobs i'm applying for right now are looking for people RIGHT NOW, i am not even available for an interview until june 9th.
• this week is so busy i don't know what to do with myself.  argh!
• not having enough hours in the day to feel fully productive and relaxed, no balance
• still no call from that place
• nothing on tv
• expensive pfizer scrips
• being tired ALL THE TIME.  (doc lowered a med, let's see if this works.  i would like to be the person who wakes up in time to actually eat breakfast and take a crap, not at the same time of course)
  

Loving:

• that there isn't a lot of loathing this week.
• weekend trip to the gym for swimming and lounging around
• that on friday i'm going to start yoga with mary, i'm EXCITED.
• school is almost over.  so close i can taste it
• someone called based on the resumes i posted on monster and careerbuilder. however she wants an interview now, see above.
• she will keep me on her list and if they're still looking on june 9 they will call
• my kids LOVE me.  they think i am AWESOME.  (man am i going to miss them)
• applied to two jobs today
• going to quit smoking.  my psych gave me a scrip for chantix, however, it costs 151 dollars, because my insurance doesn't cover it.  so i weighed the pros and cons and decided that it's cheaper and better in the long run to give this a serious chance.  i pick them up tomorrow.  cross your fingers for me.  i'm SCARED.  i've smoked on and off for almost 11 years.  and i do not want to be the person who smoked for 20 + years.  this is not to say i will never again in my life ever smoke another single cigarette.  but i do not want to be a habitual almost pack a day smoker ever again in LIFE.  i can't do any sort of cardio with any sort of efficiency.  i get winded going from the porch to the couch after a cigarette.  that is not a good thing at all.  just plain tired of it.  ready to quit, scared to quit.  it's going to be hardest in traffic, because i must be doing something.  talking on the phone, eating, something.  and it's going to be hard to quit because i will want one every time i get into the car.  the car and talking on the phone are my main triggers for smoking.  so if i have your phone number be expecting phone calls when i'm driving.  i'm counting on you!  i couldn't do the patch thing cause it wouldnt' kick in until midday and during the first periods of the day i was wanting to kill teenagers.  can't do that, now can i?
• blair baked a cake.  it was yummy.  he baked it for his brother's birthday.  his brother passed away when he was an infant.  weird thing: his brother and my brother were born within days of each other in the same year, and they both have the same name. 
  
• we made chicken and shrimp stirfry tonight.  it was also yummy
• tomorrow we're making stuffed cabbage again with the special ground chicken and turkey mix.
• listening to QUEEN in the car.  oh yes.  some of these songs i haven't heard in over ten years, still i have them all memorized in the recesses of my brain.