tuesday remorse and comfort food
It’s been an unhappy week.
The worst of it was learning how much something I had posted earlier this month had upset someone I used to care for quite deeply. I now realize my thoughtlessness in violating this person’s privacy, even if I thought it was well-masked, and only one person who might read this blog would have any idea who he is. I was also made some mean-spirited remarks in subsequent comments. I am sorry for all of this. I fucked up. I’ve removed the post and am eating my remorse, but the damage is done. Hopefully, I will at least move a little closer to becoming a kinder person from all of this.
I’ve also realized I’ve been spending more time in Voxland than is healthy for me, and have decided to take a break for awhile (though probably won’t be able to resist reading neighborly updates and sincerely hope y’all don’t delete me from your ‘hoods out of inactivity, if you haven't already deleted me for my unkindness).
So, just to sign off for the time being on a positive note, at the risk of diluting the second paragraph, let it be known that I’m going to binge on the following comfort food. Consider this a substantial portion of my desert island disc list, with the raucous and celebratory stuff missing. I don’t deserve those right now.
The Clientele: Strange Geometry, God Save the Clientele
Glenn Gould edition of J.S. Bach’s Well-Tempered Clavier I & II
Gorky’s Zygotic Mynci: How I Long to Feel that Summer in My Heart
John Wesley Harding’s New Deal
M. Ward: Transistor Radio, End of Amnesia, Transfiguration of Vincent
matt pond PA: emblems
Mojave 3: Spoon and Rafter
A mix of 23 songs co-/written and /performed by Joe Pernice and his various bands
Rachel’s: Systems/Layers
Robyn Hitchcock: A Star for Bram, + Egyptians: Queen Elvis
Sam Phillips: Fan Dance, A Boot and A Shoe
Ted Hawkins: The Next 100 Years
Yo La Tengo: Fakebook
Bye for now.
Comments
I would give you a hug right now if you didn't live on the other side of the country...and if I wasn't afraid of physical contact.
thank you. (I s'pose a mix is totally cheating on that kind of list, but there's no Pernice box set.)
Thanks, kitty, for the good counsel and sharing your own experience.
oops - we all make mistakes and hurt others at times...the important part is what we do about it. It sure sounds like you've thought this one through and followed through with kindness. Now, to forgive yourself - the trickiest, but perhaps, most important part. :-)